“My husband ended his life on 08/30/25. Two days after His dad passed away. He was crushed and sad, angry, and alcohol fueled, took a gun from the closet, wrote 3 words on FB “f*-k this world”, walked out into the road in front of Our house and I followed trying to get him inside. But, when I turned to walk back inside, He pulled the trigger, and shot himself and I heard him fall (two sounds I will never un-hear) At that moment right then, life paused, for what felt like an eternity. Now a nightmare.”

We met when I was 10 yo, grew up together, we were neighbors, until he moved away to go in the Navy at 18 in Washington. We remain friends throughout Our lives. We reconnected in 2020 in Our “home town” and fell in Love immediately, have been married for 3 years. Together for 5.

He was so loving, he was everyone’s Papa, teacher, leader, so many looked up to Him. He was an incredible presence, bigger than this life deserved. He was revered by so many, loved by hundreds, smarter than anyone I knew. A Godly Man, having read everything religion could offer. He was a mechanic for 40+ years, an Honored “Naval Veteran”, an avid Harley Davidson Motorcycle Rider for most of his entire life, before he could even walk. We spent many weekends riding for Veterans, many fundraisers including Sea to Sea for PTSD, St Jude children’s hospital, wounded Veterans rides and other charitable organizations.

He was the -finest kind- and so courageous and brave, he would stop to help anyone and everyone. He was My Vormund (my Guardian) my safe space, my whole future wrapped in the most genuine Man.

The hole he left is vast and dark. I am beyond devastated by his absence!

…Puppy (my pet name for him) I will love You until my last breath. I will talk about your life, I will honor You for as long as I am able.

We will meet at the gates of heaven, one day, wait for Me. I will see You in every single part of the rest of my life. Our song, Somewhere beyond the Sea, somewhere waiting for Me. (Bobby Darrin) Praying for You All. We grieve together! 💔❤️‍🩹🙏🏼💔

We are honored to walk in memory of John von Hartmann Jr.